Mira getting fit

Hi

as a few of you know I was in a car accident. I am still injured, wich is realy hard.

Plus my car is scrap. 

So I will need a new one because I want to find a job but for most jobs I do need a car.

This is driving me nuts….

The point is I only get 2000 from the injurance but I need 4000 for a new car!

So I made a donation site, it would be sooo cool if a few of you could help me out. Every Dollar counts!

http://www.gofundme.com/i7w6g

Plus I will do a give away for all tumblerinas that donate if you leave your tumblr URL!

More infos for this giveaway will come soon.

Stay tuned!

though I know no one even cares:

I take a break from tumblr, starting today.

Last week I was in a car accident, now again I am not aloowed to run because my neck and shoulder is injured.

I just can´t take it anymore.

I am motivated - I start working out - some shit happens - i have to pause - I have to start over.

But I am realy disapionted: I considered everyone in this fitblr community a friend, but nobody cared.

I could have died, but nobody would have cared.

These thoughts brought me back to depression and brought me back to think about a way do finally kill myself.

Somehow I am glad that I am still alive, but these thooughts are there mocking me.

Maybe I am just tired, I have to take so many pills, I can´t sleep, I am in pain…

I just don´t want this anymore

so this mornin I was in a car accident.

Now I can´t raise my arm and I hurt all over.

Went to the hospital - I am not allowed to run the next 7 fucking days.

Srsly I am pissed off with this shit.

Every fucking time I start running I get injured and have to stop for a while.

I just really depressed right now and again there are suicidal thoughts.

the urge to just pack my stuff and run away from this work I hate so much is so strong these days, I am constantly tearing up.

Too tired to do anything… I should study a bit…